"Blah" is the word I would use to describe this week. It is not bored "blah," it is a busy and almost at the brink of not caring "blah."
I feel like I've been failing miserably at teaching this year. I feel sub-par. But people keep telling me that I'm doing a great job. I've been evaluated twice this week and received top scores. I don't know exactly why I feel like such a failure. Maybe because I feel like there is too much to do and I can't do it all, and I'm letting some things slide. It is kind of a weird feeling to feel like a failure and then have people (principals, mentors, parents, students) telling me I'm doing well. I can't process it.
For some reason I said I'd teach the science ACT prep class this week. Three classes running from 2:30 to 4:00 on Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday of this week. I was really unprepared on Tuesday, but I feel better about it today. And because 2:30 to 4:00 is usually my lesson planning/grading/cleaning time, I've had to push those off or stay later (both of which I despise).
To top the week off, Parent-Teacher Conferences were yesterday. Thankfully I did not have a lot of parents, so I got a lot of work done. However, I was here from 7:00am to 8:00pm yesterday and was exhausted by the time I got home. I also felt sick yesterday (I couldn't eat a thing all day long, but Allan brought me soup during the conferences) so that lengthened the day considerably. (By the way, Deb, thanks for thinking about poor me during institute!) On the way home, my spirits were a little low, so I popped in Josh's Christmas album. I recognize it is WAY too early for Christmas, but I felt better as I heard "Silent Night" and "O, Come, All Ye Faithful."
I am very ready for this weekend! I'm excited to go to the Temple on Friday. I'm excited to cuddle on the couch and hear the words of the Prophets on Saturday and Sunday. I'm anticipating the rejuvenation I'll feel from hearing their words. I'm also excited for my mother's turkey lunch between sessions on conference. I'm making pumpkin bars to take as dessert, and I'm very excited about that too.
Only one more "blah" day to go, and then hooray for the weekend!
4 comments:
Josh makes lots of things better. :) I hope you enjoy conference.
I think my whole life can be categorized as "blah". (My mom told me she had to come and say "hi" at parent teacher conference :)
Tough luck, girl. I hope things are headin' toward the up and up for you! You are amazing, so just keep telling yourself that! :)
Hey, is there perhaps a good time to get the slip back?
Hope things look up too. I can't wait to listen to Christmas music...actually I guess I can because Christmas music means winter and I am sick and tired of winter. Last year was like torture.
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