I am kicking myself right now. Why? Well, in case you couldn't tell from the title, it is because I am SUCH and idiot! Today in physics lab (yes, the place where I live), I was working with my little group of people. We were doing physics and talking about random things. One guy (we'll call Joe) mentioned he wanted to see "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory," and I said I would like to as well. We finished our physics homework, and everybody pretty much fizzled away except Joe.
"So, do would you like to go see 'Chocolate Factory' tonight maybe?" Joe asked, looking at me.
I was shocked. I full couldn't open my mouth for probably five seconds. During those five seconds, several thoughts raced through my mind:
#1 Did what you think just happened really happen?
#2 Did he just ask me on a date?
#3 It's Cindy's birthday tonight. I promised I'd be with her, and I want to be with her!
#4 Why would he ask me out?
#5 Call Cindy and tell her you got asked on a date. She'll understand.
#6 You can't cop out on Cindy!
#7 You just got asked on a date!
#8 Stop standing there like an idiot and say something.
#9 You hate awkward situations like this.
#10 Say something!
"I would love to," I replied, "but it's my friend's birthday, and we're celebrating tonight." I tried to make my voice sound as anguished as possible. The first time I've been asked out in months and I say I can't go . . . idiot.
"Sure . . ." he smiles, hinting that I am lying.
"Really!" I cried. "Her name's Cindy, and she's turning 22!"
"Well, see you later."
"Thanks though. I would love to go, but . . . I'm sorry. Tell me how you like it."
"I will. Bye."
"Bye."
AHHHHHHHH!!!!! As I was walking down the hill, I thought of a million more witty and beautiful things to say. I thought of suggesting a later movie so I could be with Cindy AND go on a date. But, alas, all I could do was stand there like an idiot and refuse a date. I think I subconsciously push men away. I really do. I think I'm afraid of becoming emotionally involved and being hurt. So when something like this happens, I have no idea how to deal with it or what to do. I'm pretty messed up when it comes to the guy department.
Heaven, though, has pity on poor souls like me, and I'm going out on a blind date with Joanna and Lyle this next weekend. Hopefully I can redeem myself. But with my record of dating and simple interactions with males, I highly doubt any redemption will occur.
(Deep sigh.)
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Poor Haylee. Good thing we had such a good time last night! (But I would have understood anyway...) That's what friends are for! ;)
The perfect solution is quite within your grasp, Sister Ferguson! Simply ask "Joe" out yourself. Mention some other movie and ask him if you could redeem yourself by going to it with him. He'd be charmed. Seriously. And YES, I DO realize what this would entail for you. Suck it up, girl. BE STRONG! You CAN DO IT!!! And have a blast on your other date. But just because you're going on a blind date doesn't mean that you should close the door to "Joe" completely. Get my drift? ASK HIM OUT, FOR PETE'S SAKE!!! (And no, Hay, that's not a violation of your rule that you are not to initiate anything because that's the male's department. Let's not forget HE'S ALREADY ASKED YOU OUT!) Loves, etc.
Speaking of which, I'm going to ask Adam out (we've already talked about a second date) to one of Deb's gigs. Weird, I know, but it's getting the job done. Sometimes we, the fragile, beautiful, feminine ones have to do the dirty work in order for anything to get done...a concept you are quite familiar with. :) So let's be strong together.
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